Astrology points to health problem.

i  knew when I looked at my astrology chart I was going to be facing health issues. I was having my Chiron return, and Neptune was in my 6th house.

My life was feeling blurry. even though i had a regular exercise routine, of doing aerobic videos, lifting weights and I rode my bicycle every where as my mode a transportation, i seemed to have stalled.

I was not building any stamina, it was getting harder for me to ride hills, and I was unbelievably tired in the afternoons. i felt drained. i was forgetful. Instead of improving when i would exercise, my health seemed to get worse. I stead of increasinf activity, or building stamina i was loosing and gaining weight, and becoming exhausted.

I went to several doctors who thought menopause was the problem and treated that, but i knew it was more. i had a wrist that was inflamed and not healing, and

Healing Myths, Healing Magic: Breaking the Spell of Old Illusions; Reclaiming Our Power to Heal

This is one of my favorite books and one I read early on in my journey. Sometimes we give away our power to medicines, and treatments and other people and forget that we have an amazing power to heal.

What is healing? how do we heal? What id someone says that we are incurable?

These are the wonderful topics in this book. From this book i was able to take back my power to heal and be open to the many ways that healing may occur. Some times it looks like you are getting worse, sometimes what you think is good and healing is not.

in one myth it dispels is the myth that you need a quiet peaceful place to heal and that you cannot heal if you are in a loud noisy chaotic enviornment. I was in a peaceful place, but my anguish and pain was reflected back at me in every turn. I learned that this too can be good for healing.

 another myth was that healing is something that takes a long time, or costs a lot of money. What I discovered was that healing is ongoing, and even if i am symptom free, there is always healing available. In music and books and love and in my heart and learning to listen to my body. The ability to devote myself completely, to healing and learn the big and subtle nuances proved invaluable.

 Sometimes there were things to do and sometimes there was just listening to what the pain was trying to tell me. There was no need to try to pray it away, or silence it. By listening and feeling it there was a wisdom that told me what to do next.

I am so grateful for this book. it woke me up and gave me hope at the same time. The second half of the book talks about the healing magic you have inside.

i kept hoping the pain would just go away magically, but the magic was that I could still be happy, that I could grow as a person and that even in pain and ill health my life is valuable.

The magic is that listening to the pain and my healing force pointed me in diections i never would have tried and opened my heart to learning about my mind and my body.

This is a different kind of healing book. it will not tell you you what to take to get well. it will show you how to heal, what healing is, and show you the illusions that have been keeping you from healing and show you in a very real way the magic of healing.

The road to health

I started this blog with the idea that i would make 100 paper dolls and dedicate them to my health and write about them.
My health journey became so much more and I learned and am learning so many things, I would like to share it.
I am not going to preach dogma or go into tirades that mix modes of eating with religious ferver.
What i hope to present is some of the interesting things i learned about my health, choices i have made and how to create your own health.

I will share books, recipes (mostly for those who cannot tolerate nightshades), and resources that will encourage you when the pain gets to you and money for treatments is low and you feel like you will never overcome the things that are holding you back from good health.

one thing that I learned that there is no quick fix, which might be a disapointment if you are really in pain, or if nothing is working.

I am not a doctor and i am not advising any course of treatment, i mostly am sharing my thought processes on my health journey.